I have learned why I did that. I mean, made others do all the work and make decisions for me. It was so I did not have to take responsibility for my situation.
I could blame the boss that fired me, the bill collector that sued for judgment against me, or the mayor that kicked me out of the park. I can now blame them and I do not need to do the hard stuff like owning my responsibility for not doing my job or pursuing a manageable career or….
I did not have to own my responsibility for not paying my bills, or living beyond my means, or……
I did not have to take responsibility for the choices that I made.
It’s a shitty way of life, and consequently, for the most part a life of poverty.
I did not have to do the hard things, intimidating, scary things, like make a change in myself and behavior. After all, the problem was you, my boss, the mayor, the theys.
So I spent a rotten part of my life like that. Like I said, I was born that way baby.
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